Logan is almost 7 months!

Holy moly! What happened? 7 months has flewwwwww............ by! I can not believe little Logan is 7 months old tomorrow. He is seriously a genious baby! Crawling at 5 1/2 months, sitting since four months. He can pull him self up to stand now, he is also learning to stand on his own. I was a very early walker, and I know he will be too because, believe it or not, he already tries SO hard to walk. It is his favorite thing! He loves when we hold his hand to walk, and it has been that way since 4 months. He claps now, which is so cute. He is a chatter box! He says DADA allll daayyy long, now he is starting mama, and getting way close, tlaking since 6 months. He just amazes us! He had a great Christmas. He got lots of toys and clothes. We got Logan his own room, we are in the process of decorating it. We will try to get him to sleep in there when he turns one and see how it goes. We love having him sleep with us though, he is our little Teddy Bear. Cuddliest baby ever! I love it! He is getting his 6th tooth. Yippee! His room is looking way cute! I will post pictures once we are complete! With our tax return we are going to pay a years worth of car payments and maybe a years worth of car insurance. That way we only have to pay rent every month and phone. We are also buying me a new lense, which I am extatic about. I am so excited for the new year and everything that is comong with it. I am so glad to have my husband, Logan and all of my family with me to bring in the new year, and to have them the rest of my life. I know how often I say how much I love Rory, Logan and my family, but I really do. They do more for me and my family than any one can even comprehend. Rory has been my rock, best friend, soul mate and best dad ever. He means the world and more to me. I love him so dearly and I am so in love with him. Logan is literally the perfect baby. We are so blessed to have him in our lifes. He filled a spot on our hearts we didnt even know was empty. My family is so supportive. They would be here for us in the drop of a dime. I just can't imagine how empty my life would be with out them. Our good friend Brandon and Vanessa found out they were pregnant again! We are so excited and will keep them in our prayers. Their first pregnancy ended in a miscarriage and they have had troubles with others as well. This one is going to be much more monitored and I know this one will make it through. New years will be fun! We are having friends over for Kinect and New years show. I am excited. I love having my family and friends together. Logan loves it too becuase he is our little social worm! I love it! He goes every where with us and we wouldnt have it any other way!

Poor Logan

So we went in for Logans six month check up last week, and as I have stated a few times, he always has ear infections. Now for a baby who is exclusively breast fed, that is not right. We asked her to check his ears out once more, and come to find out, he has fluid behind his ear drums. They are not infected, but the fluid has to go away on its own which could take up to a year. My poor baby boy. Even though he is in pain, he always seems to smile and laugh no matter what. He is so good at crawling and he is now pulling him self up onto things to stand up. What a tough guy! He is going to have a great Christmas! Anyways, I spent my night in the ER last night. Bad migraine. Ugh. We went and bought my birthday present today. I got some wayyyyy cute Miss Me jeans at a steal of a price! They are usually 108$, but I found out I fit in kids sizes and they are only $75. So I got a size kids 14. Than Rory got me two way cute VS t shirts. We are all going to Tepenyaki with a few friends next week. I am pretty stoked. Rory pampered me. I love him so much, he has been the best husband ever. While in the hospital, he just made me feel like I was 100%. I love him so much and I could not imagine life with out him or Logan. Our hearts were already so bright and happy, and Logan came in and feeled it with even more sunshine. I am now down to 109lbs., and feeling wonderful! Well, gotta put bubs to bed. Good night!

Logan, Six months tomorrow

I am sad, yet so happy. Logan is six months old. Wow! Where did half a year go so fast? It flewwwwww....... He gives high fives, bonks, laughs! Smiles, rolls every where! Scoots around every where and in circles, Push up move :) Crawls! Yes, he is so smart. SOOO smart. He is learning where our noses are, how to give loves, and clap. I love him. So much. Rory loves him so much too! We are so happy with our perfect baby boy. Life is so crazy. It is so crazy how things make YOU. Logan, he made us even happier. Our hearts were so filled with sunshine and love before he came in, and I didn't think it could get better, now our hearts our filled with never ending rays of sun shines, heaps of love and hugs and kisses, and loads of happiness. I know I talk about how blessed I am to have Rory and Logan and my family, but I really am. I am proud, and happy. I have been through things that I wish I didn't, I went through a lot of pain and hurt, but where I am at now, and who I am now, just made those times so much more worth it. Rory and I's friend just went through their second miscarriage since Logan has been born. They have been great friends and they deserve the happiness a baby can bring and it breaks my heart that that blessing hasn't been given to them yet. I know things happen at the best time possible, but it isn't fair that they are going through this one to many times. I truly wish them the best, I know everything will work out perfectly in the end. I sit here tonight and I think about a lot of things. I am so happy, so blessed and I could not ask for more, but there is a part of my heart that hurts still. The part that is aching for my dad. I feel like I need to kind of express my self about that a little. It has been a LONG time since I actually acknowledged my feelings about it. I keep them in becuase really, it gets me no where talking about it and bringing up all the pain again. I guess though, it is better to let it out time to time. Here goes nothing.

It has been almost 9 years since the hardest part of my life began. I had such a great life. I was young and so happy. Til it hit me, my dad was no longer the same dad I was used to. My dad was a drug addict. I never wanted to say that, or think that, until the day my dads house burned to the ground. It truly hit me. My dad is losing everything he has. I was young. No 11 year old should have to force them selves to see that they are losing their dad, slowly each day. But I had too. How unfair for me. The thought of losing my dad consumed my head daily. 90% of my day was spent worrying about my dad. It should be the other way around. Why was I the one stressing about this? I put my self into a deep black hole. The light at the end of the tunnel was gone, completely. I couldn't see my way out. I was in more pain than ever. I was also just hitting the teen years, and those could not have been easier on me. I had no true friends to turn too, I was always being teased in school. There was no way out of the pain for me. Of coarse I had my mom and my other family members, but I was to stubborn to see the love they had for me. I was extremely depressed. I was 12 years old and thinking of ways to just leave the world behind. I would have rather been gone and dead than deal with the pain. It was gut wrenching. I began cutting my self. I would cut deeper and deeper each attempt. Why was a 12 year old girl doing this to her self? Mostly just to hurt my self, but I know now that a small part of that was a call for help. A call to my dad, "Look at the pain you are causing me dad, I am bleeding for you, is this enough for you to quit?" That didn't work. Instead he blamed every one else for my depression, mainly my mom. I found that funny because my mom was the only one I had to turn to, because of him. I had no care for my self, and that was when I realized he didn't either. He only cared about his next high. I know he never stopped loving me, but I know I was no longer on his priority list. I was not sleeping at night, and when I did sleep my head was filled with nightmares of my dad dying. After going through this for the next few years, even with the attempts of my mom doing what she could to try and help me, I just cared less about my self. When I hit the age of 14, I met Rory. Rory made me feel good about my self. With the help of my mom, and Rory, I am not who I am today. I am so thankful. My dad is not a bad dad, he is just sick. He has a terrible disease, addiction. I realize now that I have to take care of my self, and my own family. I love my dad so much, I care about him so much, but worrying won't get me anywhere. I know I probably won't see the day of my dad being sober again, but that is okay. I hate that Logan will never get to know that dad I knew, but atleast Logan can get to know him now. I see that having my family and having Rory was a stepping stone for me. I know some day I will meet my dad again, hopefully a reallllyyyy long time for both of us, in a much better place where he won't need drugs to feel better.
This part of my life was very dark and I hate going back there, but I realize it is worst to keep the sad feelings in, instead of letting them out. I do not hate my dad, I have anger towards him doing what he did, but I love my dad so much and nothing would ever change that. I know there are reasons for what he did, and I can not judge him for that. I am happy I still have him here for me to see. I am happy he is alive, and living.

Ohhh gee. I actually feel happy I got this out. I am just so thankful for what I have become. Even though I have been through a tough time, I know there are worst things that could happen. I know that my mom did so much for me, and still does. I am so thankful for her. I am so thankful for Rory, and all he does for me. He makes me so happy. I am so thankful for Logan and for him being more perfect than I thought was possible. I am thankful for my dad, and I love him so much.

Off to bed now.

Loving Life :)

LOVE these two pictures, love my boys!

Logan is five and a half months now :) He gives high fives, low fives, gets our nose, sits up on his own, walks with support, plays bonk, scoots, rolls every where and guess what! He started crawling tonight! We are so proud of him. Of coarse he only went once or twice, but he actually did it! He amazes us so much! Rory gave me my birthday/Christmas present early since he got his early :) He got me the 18 megapixel Canol T2i. It is an AMAZING camera! I can't wait for my next shoot to use it. I got asked to do the Highschools Winter Formal dance pictures. I am stoked and so proud of my self. Rory and I reorganized our room, it looks great! I am so excited for Thanksgiving. I love the holidays and getting together with family! Next month Rorys cousin Brixton comes home from his mission. He left before Rory and I got married, so he has never met Logan. We are so excited to see him! Tonight we went to Olive Garden with my family. It is nice to just be with them. Tonight I was filling out Logans baby book and realized how blessed I really am. I am amazed with what I actually have. My family. They are the most understanding, caring, helpful people ever. Especially my mom. She would drop her life to help the ones she loves most. My husband. He always puts me and Logan first. He cares about me, really. He cares if I am feeling down. He loves me. A lot. I know some days I am the biggest brat to him, and he solely takes it, and gives me a hug and makes every thing better. My baby boy, Logan. He is so smart. So handsome and so perfect. He is healthy. I can't believe how much we love him. He has brightened our already perfect lives. My self. I make me happy. I am proud of where I am at. I worked hard to be who I am. I love photography. I love being a small part of some ones life and capturing memories that will forever be cherished by them. I love being the mom I am. I know I do everything I can for Logan and I know I would do whatever it takes to give him a great life like I did. I love being the wife I am. I know I have and still do make mistakes and I get raunchy and rude to Rory, but I also know that I make him happy. The fact that he is happy makes me happy. He made me who I am today. I love my life and I cherish what I have. There are times when I am down and some things are just not fitting in place, but time keeps going so I have to figure out how to keep going to. I do that with the help of all of my family. Rory, Logan, my mom and every one else. Reily has been coming home from school lately really sad and upset because she is getting teased. I dreaded this day. I my self was teased all through middle school. There was no escape, kids are mean, but the fact that one of my baby sisters is being hurt kills me. My mom has not been feeling so well lately, so I went into her school after hours a few days ago and talked about it to her teacher. She is going to help Reily. Luckily, the girl that has been physcially hurting Reily, was suspended for hurting someone else as well. Hopefully it will teach her a lesson, but if it doesn't, I don't know how long I can hold my anger in on this girl. The other kids have been teasing her, and hurting her emotionally. Kids are so cruel these days. Bullying is such a problem. I hate that Reily HAS to go to school every day and instead of learning she is being teased. I hope it gets better for her. Anyways, I forgot to add, Logan now has four teeth. He is getting so big! Well, off I go!

Busy month!

Photos I took when we saw Austin the first time.

I love this picture!

110 pounds. Always be happy with your self, but strive to get to what will make you happiest!

Hoffman clan!

Hubby and son :)

My perfect family.

Logan is now five months. He can sit up by him self, roll from back to stomach and stomach to back, he can dance, and walk with our support. He now has THREE teeth! Yes 3! He can play bonk :) He is so smart. SOOOO SMART! We love him so much. We are so proud of Logan. We are also so proud of our selves and how far we have come. We are great parents, and so in love with eachother. Life is wonderful and I could not be happier with where we are at. I weigh 110 pounds and wear a size 1/2 jean and XS shirt. Woah. I never thought I would be this small again in my life. Here I am now though! I am so happy with my body. 5 pounds til my goal weight. I am not saying I was ever fat. I am saying that I was not happy with where I was at, and I am now. Every one has their own place that makes them happy. Their own decisions that they choose to make which leads to their own consequences. Whether they be good consequences or bad. I feel like what I chose led to me to a happy place. I am happy with my body, my attitude, my self. Rory on the other hand, he would be happy if I weighed 300 pounds and was balding. He loves me for me. That is what makes me the happiest. I have an amazing husband, best friend and father for my child. What more could I ask for? Halloween was a lot of fun. I went and did a family shoot for Rorys family the morning of saturday, than that night we went and visited family with Logans cute costume on and Sunday we invited Conley and Brandie over for some 21! We had a lot of fun. We are going to Wendover on Sunday with them and my mom. Rory and I decided he could go spend some time on the floor gambeling and I would stay in the suite ( my mom gets comped free suites! :) ) with Logan than we would go hot tubbing or swimming. Austin is now back in Cali. It was so good to see my brother safe and sound. He had a lot of stories to tell and it was great to have him finally meet Logan. Now that October is over, I could sit back and relax for a day :), Mayyybbee. Well, Rory and I went and got an Iphone. We love it yes! We have two phones now which is nice. My endoscopy results came back. I do have some ulcers, but those are not to serious, and I have a problem in my esophagus with some allergens. Interesting yes! Anyways, we are off to hang out. Adios world!

Safe and sound, finally!

One of the many pictures I got of Leeanns family

Rory the amazing hubs, Logan the sweetest baby and my self

Logan eating bananas, first time with jarred foods :)

Yea, had one of my up. We got colored contacts, which I think look pretty neat!

Hahah what a cutie!

My brother Austin is finally safe and sound. He was deployed to Afghanistan earlier in the year. He is now oficially home in California, and we will be seeing him tomorrow morning! We are extatic. My brother is a true hero. He risked his life so we could have our freedom. I am so proud of him. It will be the first time Austin will meet Logan and his other new nephew Knox. I am so excited. So I went and did my sisters family pictures on saturday. We drove up a very pretty canyon. I had lots of fun and the pictures turned out great. I am doing a childs birthday party shoot on saturday, as well as another child shoot saturday morning, than my sisters cousin in laws pictures. I can't wait. Logan is just about 5 months old, wow time freaken flies! He sits up on his own now, what a big boy! He is so advanced for his age. He plays peek a boo. Cutest thing ever. Him and Dad are the cutest boys ever. I am so proud of my little and big family. Anyways, I am now in a size 2 jeans. W00t W00t! I am cutting and dying my hair tomorrow. I am so excited for halloween. Rory and I are going to be vampires and Logan is a little tiger :) We will have the best costumes and I WILL post pictures. I better get to bed, we have to be at the airport pretty early. Good bye!

Logan is four months old!

Rory was Jareds best man, this was after the wedding. Logans first taste of cereal :)

He loves bath time!

Prettiest boy eyes ever!

At the wedding, he did so good! And he looked so handsome, as well as his daddy!

Our little man is now four months old. We took him and got his shots, so sad :(. He is so tall and smart and soooo handsome! He has two teeth, and two more coming in. He can roll both ways, just a little trouble rolling from back to tummy, but the fact that he can even do it is great because most babies can not do it til closer to six months. Dr. Oneida said he is functioning at about a 9 month old level. Awesome! Marci and Jareds wedding was a hit. Lot's of fun! We started Logan on rice cereal before he goes to bed and he loves it. I am planning on breast feeding til he is one so he can get the ful beneficals of it. He is a stud! We love him lots. Tomorrow we are doing my sisters family shoot which I am excited about. Gives her a chance to get a break from school and have nice family time. She has started Pharmacy school and it is hard! You can tell she is stressed and it is sad to see, but she is doing great. I am so proud of her, proud of all of my family and Rory and Logan. They have so much to show for their lifes and acheivements. I am blessed. We are also planning to go see my other sister Julie and her family. I am 2 pounds from 110. Yipee! I am planning on maintaining my weight and keeping it at 100 pounds. I am so happy with my body now, but I will be that much happier. Plus, I promised Rory I would stop at 100 lol. We decided to be vampires for halloween. We are buying colored contacts and false teeth and dressing normal, maybe a little edgy clothes. Logan is going to be a Lion, super cute! I go in next month for another endoscopy to check my liver and all of that good stuff. Sounds fun huh? We are going to the Swap Meet this weekend with Conley and Brandie, that should be fun. I still can not believe Logan is four months and a week. Holy cow! Got a family shoot on the 23rd which I am excited about, and a maternity the next day. Also doing my other sisters pictures for her little kids next weekend and another maternity next month. Woo. Well, I am off to finish laundry and dishes. Adios!

Two teeth, huge fire and numerous hospital visits!

This has been one adventerous week! As I have said, Logan began teething last month, but this week his first TWO!!!, yes I said two, teeth came in in two days! He is miserable but he is doing better. Than, I had a horrible pain in my tummy so I went into the ER, turns out my liver is messed up. My enzyme level should be at about 50-100, it is at a 500. They sent me home with an antibitioc and told me to get an appt for a scope in my tummy, went home and it got worst with a high fever. Went back in and had to stay the night. Hopefully this works out, I will have to get a camera shoved down my throat to see what is going on. Also, the mountain right next to our house is on fire. HUGE fire. It is spreading fast. I got some nifty pictures of it too! Well, off to cuddle Logan. Good night :)

Love Laughing with Rory

:) He always makes me laugh so hard. We just laughed so hard my tummy hurts. Speaking of laughing, Logan can do it now! Him and Rory are sitting here talking and copying eachother and he thinks it is the funniest thing ever! He loves his dad, it is so sweet. Rory can get him to fall asleep by singing to him. Logan is getting so big. He is almost sitting by him self. Today we are going to get my pants, Miss Me jeans. Yay! Had to go shopping again because none of my clothes fit. I am down to a size 27 (3-4) jeans and small shirt. 117lbs, I feel pretty good! Tomorrow we are having our friends over which should be pretty fun. Jared is getting married next week, finally lol. Oh my gosh, Logan is so cute, he is just chatting with his dad over here. I love it. He is sleeping through most of the night now. He wakes up at 1 than sleeps til 6 or 7. I am glad lol. I am just about finished with my second course for photography. It was hard, but so fun to learn all the things I needed to to improve my photos, and they did imencely. Sunday we are going to the fair with Conley and Brandie. I am excited. Rory and I were just talking last night about how happy we are with where life has gone for us. We could not imagine life with out eachother and Logan. He has brought so much joy to us. We love doing everything as a family. We don't get to do a lot of the things we used to, but its a sacrifice worth losing, because we have so much more fun doing things as a family. I love my family. Well I am off to hang out with Logan and Rory! Bye!

I remember

9/11, a tragic day for many. Millions lost loved ones, a mother, father, child, brother or sister, a friend. We all lost tears. I lost hope. When the towers were hit, moments with in eachother, I was young. I really didn't understand what was going on. I remember sitting on the edge of my bed watching anchormen cry and not knowing why this was so tragic. Here we are now, 9 years later, and I know now. I know the tragedy that struck us that morning. A tragedy we will never forget. I lost hope in humanity that day, but gained it back to see the strong young men stepping up to fight for our freedom, the firefighters running in to save the ones they can, the police officers and emt helping the needy, and our country coming together as one. I will never forget.


Austin finally comes home October 5th, he will return to California than coming back to Utah. He won't have to be deployed for atleast another year. Yay! We missed him so much. I am so proud of him. He has turned out to be a great, brave, strong Man. I am so thankful for my family and what they have turned out to be. I am so happy to have my husband and my beautiful baby boy. I love what my life has turned out to be. I love who I am. I am off to spend some time with my Logey boy and hubby. God bless our troops, Austin, and my family.

Great week, Logan is now three months

My sexay husband!

Some pictures of the shoot this week

Little Logan all big and cute

Me at 119

So it has been another great week, even though Rory and I got pretty harsh Flu. Logan is doing great. He is sitting so good with support, gooing and gaainng, he loves standing, even though it has been like that since week one. I bet he will walk early, if not stand early. He's such a sweety. He is so talkative and can talk to us all day. He is chuckling now too, at the silliest things. Oh I just love him. I am so glad we have him. Rory and I were really close before, but he brought us even closer, we are a family, Rory and I just keep falling more and more in love and we love Logan so much. I love my family. So I did a family shoot last week. It was a lot of fun. I had a shoot Sunday but his daughter got a big cold sore so we rescheduled for next week. I am now down to 119. Yay! I feel so good, :). We have had to buy me new clothes, size small shirt and 27 jeans, or size 4. I still want to keep losing but I am feeling radiant! Jareds wedding is in a week. We are stoked for him. There baby is due in Feb. and they are having a little girl. So cute. Well I will give a picture update, :)

Success!

Tepenyaki with Brandie and Conley was awesome! We had lots of fun. Logan loved it. They love Logan, and we are way glad about that because he comes every where with us. They need to have one now! :). Anyways, I have a family shoot tonight at six. I am pretty stoked. I have one next Sunday and the day after and October 9th. I am feeling up which is great for me. I have to go buy a new tripod today Yipee! I am shooting RAW today which I am excited about. Rory and I are getting Photoshop Lightroom so I can work on saturation and exposure. Next in line is my new lense. Tomorrow we are hanging out with Conley and Brandie again for a movie night at our place. Oops gotta go, have props to finish.

Excited and stoked!

It has been a great month! Logan turned the big three months! Such a sweet baby boy. Rory and I have been doing wonderful, as usual :). And I have been booked for three days this month and so far one next month. I am stoked. ALl the practice, learning and experiencing has finally gotten me where I want to be with my photography. I have a family shoot saturday evening and in the morning as well, another family shoot on the next sunday and a couple shoot that saturday, and another family shoot the first saturday of October. I am so proud of my self. I would not be where I am at if it wasn't for all of the support from my amazing husband, parents, family and my little man Logan. We are in a new chapter in life and it is such a great one. Tomorrow is our dinner with Conley and Brandie. I am excited, we always have lots of fun with them plus Tepenyaki is a must! They LOVE Logan which I am glad about because he comes every where with us. He is part of our group :D. So Logan has started teething. He is quite young, but the doctors say he has started and teeth should start sprouting with in a few months. Poor guy, but he is handling it great! He is such a trooper. He has been doing good through the nights, with only one or two wake ups. I am now at 120 pounds. Yipee! I will admit, I look great, but I plan to keep losing. Oh boy, I better get going, got to have a consultation with a client of mine. Wish me luck!

Logan has reached 3 months!

Logan is three month old today. This has been some the best three months that Rory and I have had together. It has really taught us a lot about eachother and brought us even closer. It has made our relationship even stronger and we have fallen even more and more in love. Logan has the brightest smile. He smiles when you sing to him, he smiles when you talk to him, he smiles when I talk about dad, He smiles when I tell him how much we love him. He can talk all day long. He wakes up every day at around 6 a.m. and begins his conversations of goos and gas. He is a major cuddler and loves snuggling up to mommy and daddy in bed. He can roll over and has been standing with his legs since week one. The doctors and every one else are so amazed how strong he is with his legs and neck. He loves his vibrating bouncy chair and could play all day in it if I let him. He has the cutest frown and perfect smile. He is trying so hard to get that little chuckle out. I couldn't have asked for a more perfect life. I have every one here I need. My amazing husband and best friend who encourages me and loves me unconditionally. An amazing son who I love and adore, and amazing parents and siblings who keep me going.

This has been a fun week. LeeAnn got accepted into Pharmacy school and we went to her ceremony and celebrated. I am so proud of her and I truly look up to her. She is so intelligant and beautiful. It was also my moms and sister Julies birthday this week. I love spending time with my family. Rory and I and Logan could just hang out together all day, and we love getting together with my family and laughing and telling stories. I am glad my family is so tight knit. I have two shoots this weekend. A little hectic but I am so happy. They are both Family shoots so it should be lots of fun. Than on the 12th, I was asked to do an old friend of mine from middle school's pictures with her boyfriend. Than I have a wedding on the 25th, and I also have two maternity sets lined up. We are just waiting to set the date for those til they get a little bigger. I love what I do, and I love getting paid to do what I love. I am half way finished with my second photography course. There is so much more to photography than just pressing the shutter button, and I am so glad I get to learn every aspect of it. Rory and I have been shopping lots for me lately just because I fit in nothing. I am a lot smaller than I am used to so I go to buy clothes and Rory is like try it on first! Little did I know I fit in two sizes smaller. I am surprised. Rory has work in the morning. I am so proud of him. He loves what he does and has done so great at it. It is very tough work, but he manages and he always is so positive about it. We have been apartment searching and have toured a few, but we are really wondering if we should just go ahead and do it, or wait til we get the Prius. Either way I am happy and he is happy and that is all that matters. Austin comes home in the beginning of October. We are extatic and can't wait for him to meet his two new nephews. So friday we are going to Tepenyaki with our friends Conley and Brandi and Jared and Marci. We are all so excited. Conley and Brandi are so much like us and I am so glad we have a lot in common with them. Well, off to bed!

Happy 1 Year!

Happy one year anniversary to my amazing husband, Rory. This year has been filled with many wonderful surprises, including our perfect son, Logan. I am so thankful for the wonderful relationship we have and how good we work together. You are a great best friend, dad, soul mate and husband and I could never ask for more. I love everything about you. I look forward to the many years to come with you, all through eternity and after. I cant believe at around this time I was walking down the aisle to meet you hand in hand with my best friend and soul mate. You complete me. My better half and my everything. Thank you for all you do! I am so in love with you. I know we will be together forever and ever and after, always in love with eachother forever and ever and after, and always happy with eachother forever and ever and after. I love you and I am in love with you. We have the most perfect family. Thank you Rory.

Snowbird trip!

So we got back from our week trip in Snowbird. It was lots and lots of fun! We stayed at the Cliff and relaxed. The views were amazing. We went to Tepenyaki for dinner for our wedding anniversary. We also took Logan in to the doctors and found out he has an ear infection in both ears, but luckily he is doing much better now. Poor baby. I am down to 123 pounds. I feel great. Life is so amazing. It is such a gift and I am so blessed to have what I do. We had lots of fun in Snowbird and it made me realize even more what a great husband I have, and beautiful baby and perfect family. Rory goes back to work tuesday after taking the week off, I go back to being a full time mommy while Rory is at work. I love my life so much and my family and my whole family as well. We went to dinner last night with Conley and Brandy. That was actually a lot of fun! We stayed for like five hours after we ate, til they closed. It was fun. They are a great couple and we all have a lot in common. Logan is such a talker. He talks and talks and talks. It is like he is having a conversation with us! We love it and I have plenty of videos of him. I have a shoot to do on the 4th of september for a family, but I am still debating on where to do it at. I have two places in mind that are both incredibly beautiful, but I just can't decide! Anyways, here are a few pics of this week!

Picture time~

Logan, looking chubby as can be!

At church with dad

Lol Logans face, so cute. I look crappy not wearing makeup, but thats okay.

My beautiful hubby and I

My dad and I with Logan after a photo shoot.

My family at church

Pretty clouds

Logan after he got his shots, poor baby

Austin in Afghanistan, a few more weeks and he will be home :)

Logan is 10 weeks 2 days!

Time flies. He is such a big boy. He got his shots on the 2 of this month, did so good! He had a fever from them for a week but it is gone now. He weighs 11 pouns 13 ounces and is 23 inches long! I have lost a total of 50 pounds since having him. Breast feeding is like the best work out ever! Haha, well combined with eating a lot healthier, but I think it is mostly from Breastfeeding. Last time I was this skinny was middle school. Its hard to believe the day I had him I weighed 175 lol. I guess thats what pregnancy does to you. So we leave for our trip on Saturday, and I am way excited. It will be good to get out for a little bit. Right now, Rory is at work, Hogey Logey is asleep and I am sitting here with a migraine, but still happy as can be. We went to Buckle a few days ago and had to buy me another pair of pants because my others don't fit any more, this is like the 4 pair since I was pregnant. Sucky, but I decided I am not buying any more til my weight stops dropping. So I went and got the IUD almost two weeks ago, so far it is great. No weight gain and minimal spotting. Rory likes it as well, it lasts five years but we can take it out at any time to start trying for another little one. So I am looking into buy some new lenses for my camera. Really looking at the 55mm f/1.8. It is perfect for what I do, and I need a need lense hood and external flash, but those have a time later down the road :). Rory gets his present this week for our anniversary. We are giving our presents in the middle of our wedding anniversary and other one. He got the SOcal cologne from Hollister, it is his favorite. Today we have to go buy a bouncy chair for Logan, so I am off!

Four years today

Today is Rory and I's four year anniversary. The best four years of our lives and an eternity to go. He has been my best friend, soul mate, hero, angel and love and I could not ask for more. We have our little arguments which only bring us closer, and we have our big laughs that grow our love faster. Never will we be apart. This life was meant for us to be together and to raise our cute family. When I first saw you, my heart knew you were meant for me, and knew we would have great memories together. You have made me a better person, made me realize I am much better than what I thought I was, made me see what I deserve in life and who deserves to be there with me. I am so blessed to have you, to have Logan and to have our strong relationship. I have been thinking all day of what to write in this letter, but words strong enough to describe how in love with you I am have not been made. I just keep thinking of our favorite memories together. So that's what I will do, list my favorite memories with you.

My favorite Memories

Prank calling you while at Puppy Palace

This was the first time I heard your voice. You made me laugh and I loved it! You couldn't be fooled that my name was Ching Chow either :)

Meeting you at the park for the first time

First time our eyes met. I fell in love. Something I didn't think was possible, love at first sight, but I was proven wrong.

Sneaking to Jordan Landings to see you

You always had the cutest outfits on. Tight flared girl jeans, a white superman tee with a green striped button up underneath. Ow ow!

Our First Kiss :)

I walked to Smiths to see you. We sat in the Toilet paper aisle. When no one was around you went in for a kiss, but I didn't know and put my head down. I got a big wet kiss on my nose. After that, we kissed again. Sparks flew, firecrackers were going off everywhere, it was like in the movies! Okay, not really but it was an amazing moment.

That phone call of you asking me how I would like "it" HAHA!

Right after we talked about how we wanted to wait for marriage to do the deed, you asked "when we do do it, how do you want it" I was confused because you asked this joke to me on Christmas that year about that, so I correlated your question to that joke and answered "Lubricated" HAHA! You laughed and laughed and I felt completely stupid. :)

When You first met my mom ( so scary for me )

You came to the door with two lip rings in. You would have taken them about before hand but you just pierced them so taking them out would have closed the hole. My mom asked, oh my gosh what is stuck in your lip! Do you want me to get the pliers? Never will I forget that.

Going to the movies and watching A Night At The Museum 50 times.

I will admit, when we are together it is hard for us to keep our hands to eachother. We saw this movie so many times, just so we could have a place to sit and make out with out the worry of getting caught.

Talking on the phone with you for hours at a time

Hearing your voice brightens my day, and you can always make me laugh. It was hard not being able to see you all those days, but the phone calls helped me get through.

Going to watch Norbert but there was no seats left.

We got to the theater and it was packed with people, we would have had to sit on the floor so we decided to do something else. We went behind a business, it was really dark, and we made out :) Than I had a bad feeling so we left and went and bought Silly putty haha.

Watching Texas Chain Saw Massacre on the laptop.

You will know why this was a favorite memory of mine. ;)

You coming over unannounced when I wasn't ready.

I felt so stupid because I was fixing my hair so it was all crazy, but you called me beautiful any ways.

You having to sleep over because your sister took the car.

Our first sleep over. You slept on the cough upstairs and I slept in my bed. I woke up extra early to brush my teeth and fix my hair so you couldn't smell my stinky breath.
Bowling with you.

I loved bowling trips with you. Even that time I let you sit on my lap and you farted :D
Eating at Burger King.
We ate there so much we got sick.

Same with Mcdonalds :)

Our Idaho Trips.

Those sucked at the time, but looking back we had lots of great laughs.

You sitting in dog poo HAHA!

Probably not your favorite memory
Meeting your family.

They scared the crap out of me. It was Easter
They talked about Puppy Palace.
Going To California with you and my family.
You wouldn't go in the water at the beach with me, but we still had fun. Disney Land was probably not worth the wait :)

Buying our wedding rings.

We were so excited to tell the world we were engaged!

Planning our wedding.

We both were so excited for it that really anything would have worked.

Our wedding day.

I can remember waking up that day feeling so many butterflies. I was so nervous, excited and everything else you can imagine. I remember walking down the aisle and seeing nothing but you and your perfect face. When we kissed a new world opened up to me.

In the middle of an argument, you making me laugh.

You always make me laugh.

Positive pregnancy test.

You woke me up at 7 AM to take it, I told you not to get your hopes high, I peed and before my pants were on it was positive. We layed in bed together and I cried. I was so happy. I will never forget this.

Every morning I puked.

You pulling my hair out of my face while I puked from morning sickness.

Laying in bed with you while we felt Logan kick.

Perfect.

You holding me while I had contractions.

They hurt, but you holding me made it better.

You forcing me to go to the hospital.

You were right, I was in labor.

Holding your hand during labor.

I thought I was going to die, but you kept telling me how great I was doing. You made me keep going.

Watching you hold Logan the first time.

I was amazed that you took being a father so naturally.

Watching you change his diaper in the hospital.

He peed, literally every where.

You walking me to the bathroom because I couldn't walk by my self.

At that point, I don't care how much of a pollatipuss I looked like :)

First week home with Logan.

So hard and so fun.

Every day of my life with you.

You are my everything.

I love you and can't wait for the many more years of eternity with you. I am so in love with you. Together forever and ever and after, always in love with eachother forever and ever and after and always happy with eachother forever and ever and after. Love you more no battle no battleing it!

Heres to years of more favorite memories!