22 weeks pregnant

Here I am at 22 weeks pregnant! It has been an eventful day this week. While my pregnancy seems to be going by so fast, my tummy feels with more butterflies each day. These butterflies are representing Rory and I's excitement to meet Baby Logan, to be parents, to count on eachother through it all, Our love to keep growing and growing just like it has always, to share our love with Logan, and my nervousness about being a mom. Thats right, I am nervous. Rory is far to excited to be nervous, and he has no reason to be. I know he is going to make an incredible dad. He already is. He is a great husband. I love him so much! I am nervous because I feel like I don't know enough. I know I will do great with Rory's help, I just feel like it might not come as natural. Although I have helped with many of my siblings and nieces and nephews, and I am great with kids, I still get those jitters. I know though that we both will do great. Last night I ended up in Labor and Delivery for five hours after taking a hard fall down some slick stairs up at Sundance. It was a long drive to the hospital, and I was on the verge of breaking down because Logan had stopped kicking. He was so active all day until the fall, and I think it is cause it scared him. Although I got pretty beat and bruised up, my only thought was Logan. I got to the hospital and they put a monitor on my tummy to monitor his heart beat and movements to make sure he wasn't going into stress. At midnight, I arrived home, feeling so good to know my baby boy is doing great! I woke up this morning so sore from the fall, but I am fine as long as Rory and Logan are doing good. I have learned that some people I allowed into my life really have to spot to be there. I took a lot of crap and hurt from these people, and I let them control my emotions for a long time, but when they offended my husband, thats where my line was crossed. I just have realized what is important to me, and what I want in my life. That is happiness and positiveness, and with these people in it, its hard to have. It is time to start thinking about me and my family, and I know what is best now. I am so happy for the great people I have in my life. It is incredible how much they can do for me, even when it is such simple things. I have also learned about how easily death can hit upon. Rory and I knew a kid that recently decided he wanted to return to Heavenly Father, and although I myself really did not know him, I knew of him, I just realized how easily it hits, and how much we need to really devote our selfs to family. Life is such a precious gift and we have been given so much to live for, it is something we need to take day by day and learn and love and laugh. I am so blessed for Rory, Logan, my parents, and all of my family, and I am so grateful to spend my life with them in it. Well, I am off. We love you all!