Four years today

Today is Rory and I's four year anniversary. The best four years of our lives and an eternity to go. He has been my best friend, soul mate, hero, angel and love and I could not ask for more. We have our little arguments which only bring us closer, and we have our big laughs that grow our love faster. Never will we be apart. This life was meant for us to be together and to raise our cute family. When I first saw you, my heart knew you were meant for me, and knew we would have great memories together. You have made me a better person, made me realize I am much better than what I thought I was, made me see what I deserve in life and who deserves to be there with me. I am so blessed to have you, to have Logan and to have our strong relationship. I have been thinking all day of what to write in this letter, but words strong enough to describe how in love with you I am have not been made. I just keep thinking of our favorite memories together. So that's what I will do, list my favorite memories with you.

My favorite Memories

Prank calling you while at Puppy Palace

This was the first time I heard your voice. You made me laugh and I loved it! You couldn't be fooled that my name was Ching Chow either :)

Meeting you at the park for the first time

First time our eyes met. I fell in love. Something I didn't think was possible, love at first sight, but I was proven wrong.

Sneaking to Jordan Landings to see you

You always had the cutest outfits on. Tight flared girl jeans, a white superman tee with a green striped button up underneath. Ow ow!

Our First Kiss :)

I walked to Smiths to see you. We sat in the Toilet paper aisle. When no one was around you went in for a kiss, but I didn't know and put my head down. I got a big wet kiss on my nose. After that, we kissed again. Sparks flew, firecrackers were going off everywhere, it was like in the movies! Okay, not really but it was an amazing moment.

That phone call of you asking me how I would like "it" HAHA!

Right after we talked about how we wanted to wait for marriage to do the deed, you asked "when we do do it, how do you want it" I was confused because you asked this joke to me on Christmas that year about that, so I correlated your question to that joke and answered "Lubricated" HAHA! You laughed and laughed and I felt completely stupid. :)

When You first met my mom ( so scary for me )

You came to the door with two lip rings in. You would have taken them about before hand but you just pierced them so taking them out would have closed the hole. My mom asked, oh my gosh what is stuck in your lip! Do you want me to get the pliers? Never will I forget that.

Going to the movies and watching A Night At The Museum 50 times.

I will admit, when we are together it is hard for us to keep our hands to eachother. We saw this movie so many times, just so we could have a place to sit and make out with out the worry of getting caught.

Talking on the phone with you for hours at a time

Hearing your voice brightens my day, and you can always make me laugh. It was hard not being able to see you all those days, but the phone calls helped me get through.

Going to watch Norbert but there was no seats left.

We got to the theater and it was packed with people, we would have had to sit on the floor so we decided to do something else. We went behind a business, it was really dark, and we made out :) Than I had a bad feeling so we left and went and bought Silly putty haha.

Watching Texas Chain Saw Massacre on the laptop.

You will know why this was a favorite memory of mine. ;)

You coming over unannounced when I wasn't ready.

I felt so stupid because I was fixing my hair so it was all crazy, but you called me beautiful any ways.

You having to sleep over because your sister took the car.

Our first sleep over. You slept on the cough upstairs and I slept in my bed. I woke up extra early to brush my teeth and fix my hair so you couldn't smell my stinky breath.
Bowling with you.

I loved bowling trips with you. Even that time I let you sit on my lap and you farted :D
Eating at Burger King.
We ate there so much we got sick.

Same with Mcdonalds :)

Our Idaho Trips.

Those sucked at the time, but looking back we had lots of great laughs.

You sitting in dog poo HAHA!

Probably not your favorite memory
Meeting your family.

They scared the crap out of me. It was Easter
They talked about Puppy Palace.
Going To California with you and my family.
You wouldn't go in the water at the beach with me, but we still had fun. Disney Land was probably not worth the wait :)

Buying our wedding rings.

We were so excited to tell the world we were engaged!

Planning our wedding.

We both were so excited for it that really anything would have worked.

Our wedding day.

I can remember waking up that day feeling so many butterflies. I was so nervous, excited and everything else you can imagine. I remember walking down the aisle and seeing nothing but you and your perfect face. When we kissed a new world opened up to me.

In the middle of an argument, you making me laugh.

You always make me laugh.

Positive pregnancy test.

You woke me up at 7 AM to take it, I told you not to get your hopes high, I peed and before my pants were on it was positive. We layed in bed together and I cried. I was so happy. I will never forget this.

Every morning I puked.

You pulling my hair out of my face while I puked from morning sickness.

Laying in bed with you while we felt Logan kick.

Perfect.

You holding me while I had contractions.

They hurt, but you holding me made it better.

You forcing me to go to the hospital.

You were right, I was in labor.

Holding your hand during labor.

I thought I was going to die, but you kept telling me how great I was doing. You made me keep going.

Watching you hold Logan the first time.

I was amazed that you took being a father so naturally.

Watching you change his diaper in the hospital.

He peed, literally every where.

You walking me to the bathroom because I couldn't walk by my self.

At that point, I don't care how much of a pollatipuss I looked like :)

First week home with Logan.

So hard and so fun.

Every day of my life with you.

You are my everything.

I love you and can't wait for the many more years of eternity with you. I am so in love with you. Together forever and ever and after, always in love with eachother forever and ever and after and always happy with eachother forever and ever and after. Love you more no battle no battleing it!

Heres to years of more favorite memories!

Logan is 8 weeks 4 days :)

Keiths tattoo

My moms before and after

Our cute family

Happy Logan!

What a big boy! He is so smart. He has been smiling so much lately. He started smiling at 4 weeks, rolling stomach to back at 3 weeks and is now rolling from back to stomach which is scary because he rolls on to his tummy in his sleep so I have to keep rolling him back over. He is now sleeping through the night, w00t w00t! So Saturday is Lukey boy's friday, he will be one years old, and his party is on saturday, and Rorys grandmas birthday is saturday and she will be 82. She is such a sweet lady and we love her! Today we went to my check up and everything looks great! I got the IUD inserted so I won't get pregnant for five years. We are thinking three years for another, and I will have it removed than. By that point Rory will be out of school or close to it so it will be great timing. So we are staying at the Snowbird Cliff club. It is really pretty and it will be nice to have a get away.

As of now, Austin comes home September 29th. We are all so excited, but hoping they don't move the date. He has done so good and we are all so proud of him. So my mom and Keith have become tatholics :). They have each gotten two tattoos in two months. They are really cool though and very meaningful. My mom got Keith, My Love tattooed on her wrist and her second tattoo she got 7 1/2 hearts surrounding it to represent her 7 kids and the one baby she lost. Keith got Connie My life on his chest and his second tattoo was a row of scrolls with all of our names on it and our family crest. I will have to post some pictures. Once I stop breastfeeding we will go get ours.

August is going to be a busy month. We have our trip from the 14th-21st, two family shoots, and a wedding at the end. I am so excited though. I love being able to do my work with Logan with me.

Rory and I watched a really good movie the other night. It was called The Fourth Kind. It is a true story with real audio and real footage of abductions and killings from posession, it is really interesting.

So I am half way done with the photography course I have been doing. I really enjoy what I am learning and glad I can use this to improve what I am doing in life. Even if it is just for a side money, I do it because I love it.

Anyways, gotta get stuff done!

Logan is 7 weeks and 2 days :)

Little man is getting big! He is so good at rolling from tummy to back, has been doing this since about 4 weeks, and smiles so much! He is the cutest talker and even the cutest fit thrower. He is so tall and so cute and we love him so much! We are getting our Prius hopefully in the next three weeks. We have to send 3,000 to Rorys Corolla to pay it off, and we want to put 3,000 down on the Prius, so far we have sent 1,000 to the Corolla in one week and saved around 700 for the Prius. We are so excited, expecially for how much driving we do this will be perfect. It has many great features. So on the 14th of AUgust we are going to Snowbird for a week for our anniversary. Rory, Logan and I will be going down the 14th through the 17th, and than Karlee and Luke will be coming down through the 21st, because Karlee needs a little break and get away plus we love hanging with her and Lukey. We are staying in a Studio room so it has a kitchen so we will just be buying groceries and such and cooking there a lot. I can't wait. It will be Rory and I's first vacation in a long time, and Logans first one ever. I have done four shoots this week, getting paid $40-$60 each session. Love it! I also have two maternity sets lined up for October and November. I love what I do! I love getting better at what I do and I love learning more about myself in the mean while. Photoshop has been coming easier and easier with all the learning I am doing with that as well, you can do some amazing things with it! Rory and I will have been together for 4 years on the 6 of August and married a year on the 25th of August. So many great years and so many great more to come. Lots of beautiful memories and moments that I will treasure for a life time. I am so blessed to have him in my life and have him for our eternity and for our beautiful little family. So I am down fourty 7 pounds and still losing. I feel great! Anyways, I am off to cuddle with my two boys! Good night everyone!

Logan is 6 weeks and 1 day :)

Love my two boys!

Haha! Logan sleeping in his crib. Super handsome!

Oh boy he is growing so much so fast! Bitter sweet. He is now 10 pounds and almost 23 inches tall. He is soooo precious and amazing and Rory and I could not be happier! On saturday we had Logan blessed. Rorys dad, grandpa and two cousins blessed him. It was such a special moment and Logan did wonderful. So this week we are planning on getting our new Prius. If everything goes well we will be driving to Oregon for our anniversary, but if we end up not getting the Prius we will just be going to Snowbird for the week and Karlee and Luke will also be coming. It should be lots of fun! Rory and I went and bought me some new clothes this week. I feel so great about my body, which is surprising for me. I can now fit in to size small shirts, they are a little snug around the chest area, but otherwise fit, I havent fit into a small since middle school! WOOHOO! My pant size is in an awkward stage but I can fit into a 27-29 depending on the brand of pants. I just feel wonderful. Rory and I are doing wonderful. I am so blessed to have Rory and Logan and my family. So friday I did a shoot for three little boys. Very cute too! Two of them were brothers and one was their cousin. They turned out very cute. It is nice to get paid doing what you love, even if it is only an occasional, extra money kind of thing. Friday night for some reason my thighs were extremely sore and I could not even touch them. I went to see my doctor today and they are determing whether or not I have red blood cell detiration. Not good but it is something you can fix which is good. Next week I have two more shoots. A little busy but it will be good for me. Rory and I's year anniversary is next month for being married, and being together a total of four years. Feels great to have found the love of my life and so mate so young so we can spend more of life together. He is an amazing dad and husband and best friend and I am so thankful for him and Logan.

Little Logans first real smile :)

I feel like I look huge in that picture :), I do look pretty good for only being two weeks out in that pic though! Logan has the cutest face ever! Rory and I did so good. I love my hubby and baby boy.

So Logan showed his mommy and daddy his first big beautiful and real smile (not a gas one either!) on July 7. Oh how precious it was. Playing with his little chin and talking to him really gets him going. It lit up our world! He is such a sweet baby. He has gained 2 pounds and grew almost 3 inches! Crazy that they grow so fast. On tuesday I go in for my six week check up. All should go well. Hopefully I healed okay from the getting cut part, but doc said because I went completely drug free that my body should heal it self fast and better. I am also getting the IUD inserted. Five years tops, but we are thinking the year Rory gets out of school to get it removed and try for another little one. Tomorrow morning I have a shoot with three little boys. I am super excited and a little nervous, I tend to get that way before a shoot. So Rory and I have started a new thing. We do show nights every night before bed. Kind of like an inhome date night. We have finished lots of series of great shows. Weeds, Dexter, Breaking Bad, Heroes. Its lots of fun! I am so lucky to have such an amazing little family! Logan is getting blessed on Saturday, I am so happy. He looks so handsome in Rorys old blessing outfit. Taking after daddy so well! Well, I better get some sleep, the shoot is at eleven AM and I have to be up at 8 to get Logan on his feeding schedule. BYE!

Logan 5 weeks 3 days!

Pictures and announcement done by me :)

Our baby boy is growing so fast! He is now 22 inches tall and around 10 pounds. Today he showed off his beautiful REAL smile, not the gassy smile, but the smile that says I LOVE YOU! It was so precious, also, last week he learned how to roll from stomach to back. He is such a smarty pants. Well, this has been an eventful month. Rorys car broke down and it is going to cost us around 6k to fix. We are planning on buying a Prius under my name, a car that can actually fit Logan in it lol. Hopefully by our anniversary we will have it. On our anniversary we plan on going up to Oregon for a week in Rorys parents time share. That is if we are doing well on finances. If not, we will just go up to Snowbird for a week. It will be nice to get away with our little family. Rory is starting Pilot Aviation school soon. I am so proud of him, he has been such a wonderful husband and is now an amazing dad. I love him so much! :). I am so surprised how fast my body bounced back from this pregnancy. My fear was that I would not lose all the weight just from hearing from friends and such how hard it was for them, but here I am 5 weeks after givng birth and lost almost 45 pounds. That is more than I gained. I am still losing too! I am 5 pounds from my goal weight. Well, this month has been a take off with photo shoots. Friday I have a shoot with three little boys who are all cousins and brothers. Next week I have my nephews. The next week is my sisters family, and then at the beginning of August I have three little girls who are all sisters. In September I have a wedding on the 25th and bridals that day as well. I did some engagements at the beginning of the month as well. I am so blessed to have life going so perfect all the time. Of coarse there are the down times but the up times make up for it. I got my bangs cut. I love it! I just had them cut straight across and frame my face, I look so good :). Well, I am off to feed Logan, see you all later!

He finally arrived!

Baby Logan is finally here! On May 30th, I noticed my contractions were much more painful than they had been before. I was having them all night, ten minutes apart. Rory noticed and practically forced me to the hospital. I really did not want to be sent home again in early labor. I made him the deal that I would go if we could get a cinnamon roll from Mcdonalds first :). At 11:00 a.m. we arrived at the doctors. I was in pain, but handling it well. My contractions were really irregular, so I thought nothing to much of it. I expected to be sent home. After talking to some lets just say not so smart nurses for half an hour, they finally took us to our room and checked me. I was 5 cm. dilated and completely effaced. WOOHOO! She told me she wasn't letting me leave and they got me hooked up to some IV's ( which also took half an hour and five pokes ). She told me that it would go by slow so get some rest. An hour later she checked and I was at a 7. Woah, that was fast. They were surprised. I had my mom rush our camera over, we hadn't even gathered everything we wanted. By the time she got their I was at an 8. At about 4:00 my water broke and contractions were more painful. They were all so surprised I handled the pain so well with out even asking for the epidural. They made sure I didn't want it. Nope, I sure didn't. I was having back labor and it was very painful at that point, but I just took each contraction once at a time. They finally realized that Logan was facing up, which is why my back hurt so bad. Luckily I had Rory tickling my face and the nurse rubbing my back. The doctors kept trying to turn him with each contraction, that was soooo painful, worst than the contraction. He was not budging. Labor was going to be really hard with him in that position. Finally, when I had reached a 10, they realized that he turned on his own, GOOD BOY!!!! I started pushing at 6:00 p.m., I gave it my all while yelling I am pooping! I really didn't care though. Everything was out that window at that point. He was crowning and was not coming out. The doctor decided I needed an episiotomy. With my next push she cut me and than numbed me after words. I heard and felt it, but it was not much worst than the crowning. At this point, Rory is feeling faint because he just watched me get cut. Than his head was out. I had to completely hold back my push. His head I guess was wobbling every where as Dr. Oneida cleaned out his mouth and nose, Rory was realllly faint at this point. Than with one big push, he was here. Finally. What a joyful moment. Rory had to sit down on the toilet, he was not doing well. He cut the cord. Logan was born at 6:22 p.m. 7 pounds 14 oz, 19 inches long and more perfect than ever. With a head full of dark hair. He is so cute. Rory and I fell in love immediately. Going all natural was the biggest accomplishment of my life, as well as finding a husband as perfect as Rory. Rory has been such an amazing dad and husband. He does everything for us and makes sure life is as easy as possible for us. I am so thankful for him and my little family. Logan is now 9 days old and exclusively breast fed. It is tricky, but we are both adjusting well to it. I have lost 27 pounds, 4 pounds to my pre weight, 10 til my goal weight. I know I can get there with lots of exersize and healthy eating. Well, Rory and I could not be happier. We adore little Logan and are so blessed to have eachother.