23 weeks and flying!

I am now at the 23 week mark. So crazy! 17 or less weeks to go! Rory and I have been doing wonderfully! We went to the circus tonight with all of my family and had a blast, although the animals really got my allergies going, but all in all it was a very fun time! I haven't really mentioned much about how my photography business is doing, not on this blog of mine at least, but I will fill you in. I decided to take my photography to the next level, where I have always wanted it to be. I now officially own Shory Photography. What is nice about what I am doing is that I do not need a business license. That saved me a lot of time and money. I have done five shots these last two weeks, and three more coming the next three weeks. Great start! I started advertising on KSL.com, and had word of mouth clients as well. The process was a little difficult, but now that I have all the legal stuff down, I am set to go! I have been doing a lot of senior shots. I offered a package and have been charging $50.00 for them. I also have a family shot coming up this next week, and two girls that are friends with eachother are having me do their seniors, singles, and friend shots. I have been doing so great, and I am so proud of my self! I have signed up for the next online photography course, and been reading my life away. I know most of what I need to, but I also know that every little thing counts. My accomplishment has been fulfilled, and I have no one to thank but my self, my wonderful husband for his support, and my family for being there. Rory and I will be getting our tax return next friday. We are getting a lot more than I expected, but with the tax return, the money we have been getting off of puppies, and my photography shoot money, we have been doing wonderful. For my Valentines present, Rory bought me my DREAM camera. Canon XSI 450D. It is incredible. I want to say what I got him, but I know he will read this, sneaky boy! I know he will love it though! We are also putting money aside for baby Logans circumsition since the insurance no longer covers that, and we both decided it is what we want for him. We have our crib, and every thing else. Now the baby shower comes, and I know with how many people are coming, we will be getting more than enough. I recently stumbled upon some of Rory and I's pictures that are on some bodies public blog. I really don't mind that she has them on there, but what I do mind is that when I took her and her daughters pictures, and after our recent dropping of our friendship, I respected her wishes to take them off of my FB. I am just clueless as to why it was such a deal that hers must be taken down, but mine our up there for the world to see. I started building my portfolio, and really want to add some of the pictures I took of her and her daughter in it, but I know a big bussle will be the out come of it. Although, I do own the pictures and copyright to them, and I can not get into any legal trouble, the trouble she will cause me will not be worth it in the end. Plus, I know I have many clients to come that can be added into my portfolio. Logan weighs just over a pound now, and is really growing more and more each day. I am a little worried, as my weight is very slowly growing, but my doctor says I don't have much to worry about, because Logan is healthy as can be. My starting weight when I got pregnant was 142, when I hit 15 weeks, I was down to 127, now I am not 135, but should be at 158. Scary right? Well according to the docs, it is fine for now, that is. I am so excited to be a mom, and Rory is extatic to be a dad. He is going to be amazing, and I am so happy to have him be my support system. I watch these shows about single moms, and I can never understand how they do it. It has to be tough on a person physically, but emotionally as well. I think any one who has there companion with them through the pregnancy and parenting, should be charishing life because they were blessed with some one that loves them enough to stick by and do what ever they can for you. Life is such a silly thing, and can really boggle my brain thinking about it. How did I end up with such an amazing husband, and family? I am not sure, but I know that I have seriously been blessed. Countless times in my life, I have had people tell me horrible things about my self, things I have never found true, but I now realize the meaning behind it. These same people have been looking up to me and everything I do, and it is in plain sight. It truly flatters me that I can be such an inspiration to someone. My life has had its up's and downs, but in reality, the only thing you can do during the tough times is keep looking ahead. The road always continues, and I believe that this is the reason my life has turned out so perfectly. Talk to you all soon!

Starting my career, and making the best choices.

So I finally realized what I am truly good at and what I love doing. Photography. I have improved so much in what I do, and I am now learning GIMP and photoshop. I decided to set forth and start advertising. In fact, I have a shoot booked for friday, and a few senior shots to do. I am way excited and very proud of my self for pushing and pushing and not giving up. I can take critism from people and turn it around into something good. Learning from it. I tend to only listen to the ones who matter most, or who really know what they are talking about.
This week has been a pretty good week. Although there are certain people really trying and going out of there way to put me down, I am finally seeing what I should have done years ago. I finally took out my trash. Now I can wipe my hands clean. I know there was times when I tried and failed at doing this in the past, but this time I have no need to dumpster dive. Yay for me! I can move on now. I have every one in my life that I need.
Logan is growing very fast and it is almost scary how close it is for him to be here with us. I am learning all about his personality and his sleeping patterns. It is amazing! I can sit and watch my belly move when he moves around. Being a mom is going to be an awesome experience, especially with my loving and supporting Husband by my side. I am so blessed to be where I am at today.

22 weeks pregnant

Here I am at 22 weeks pregnant! It has been an eventful day this week. While my pregnancy seems to be going by so fast, my tummy feels with more butterflies each day. These butterflies are representing Rory and I's excitement to meet Baby Logan, to be parents, to count on eachother through it all, Our love to keep growing and growing just like it has always, to share our love with Logan, and my nervousness about being a mom. Thats right, I am nervous. Rory is far to excited to be nervous, and he has no reason to be. I know he is going to make an incredible dad. He already is. He is a great husband. I love him so much! I am nervous because I feel like I don't know enough. I know I will do great with Rory's help, I just feel like it might not come as natural. Although I have helped with many of my siblings and nieces and nephews, and I am great with kids, I still get those jitters. I know though that we both will do great. Last night I ended up in Labor and Delivery for five hours after taking a hard fall down some slick stairs up at Sundance. It was a long drive to the hospital, and I was on the verge of breaking down because Logan had stopped kicking. He was so active all day until the fall, and I think it is cause it scared him. Although I got pretty beat and bruised up, my only thought was Logan. I got to the hospital and they put a monitor on my tummy to monitor his heart beat and movements to make sure he wasn't going into stress. At midnight, I arrived home, feeling so good to know my baby boy is doing great! I woke up this morning so sore from the fall, but I am fine as long as Rory and Logan are doing good. I have learned that some people I allowed into my life really have to spot to be there. I took a lot of crap and hurt from these people, and I let them control my emotions for a long time, but when they offended my husband, thats where my line was crossed. I just have realized what is important to me, and what I want in my life. That is happiness and positiveness, and with these people in it, its hard to have. It is time to start thinking about me and my family, and I know what is best now. I am so happy for the great people I have in my life. It is incredible how much they can do for me, even when it is such simple things. I have also learned about how easily death can hit upon. Rory and I knew a kid that recently decided he wanted to return to Heavenly Father, and although I myself really did not know him, I knew of him, I just realized how easily it hits, and how much we need to really devote our selfs to family. Life is such a precious gift and we have been given so much to live for, it is something we need to take day by day and learn and love and laugh. I am so blessed for Rory, Logan, my parents, and all of my family, and I am so grateful to spend my life with them in it. Well, I am off. We love you all!

21 weeks 4 days.

What a journey! Today, Rory and I went into my second ultrasound where they check on the baby and make sure everything looks good. He was moving so much! I guess that could be from the coffee I drank a few minutes before. In the first ultrasound, he was sleeping through most of it, so I was bummed. This time he really put on a show! Rory calls him our little porn star. He was NOT shy. Even at the first one he was opening wide for the world to see. Everything looked great. He was right on track. The only thing we could not make sure of was the cleft lip, because he was facing my spine so we could not see his little face, but the US tech said we shouldn't worry unless it runs in our family. Which it doesn't, that we know of. So I am half way through, and everything has gone great. My morning sickness has let up ALOT, and I am finally putting on a few pounds here and there. I have gained a total of five pounds, and lost a total of 15 pounds, I should have gained around ten, but as long as Logan is healthy and good, I am not complaining. Rory bought me my first pair of maternity jeans, I laugh as I write this because it seems so weird that I have to wear them. I guess it probably is not that okay to walk around with my pants unbuttoned. Rory has been so supportive of me and Logan, just as I had expected. He always buys me what I am craving, kisses my belly, falls asleep with his hand on my belly, Logan LOVES him! He kicks so much when Rory is around. It is so amazing. I am so excited, and can not believe a little less than twenty weeks and he will be here. Better get ready! I love my Rory so much! And my baby Logan. And Rory loves us so much too! We love you all!

Its a Boy! 18 weeks 4 days.

Like I told you before, even before we knew, we are having a baby boy! His name will be Logan Keith Hoffman, Keith after Rorys grandpa, and my step dad. We are over joyed, and I am so happy to have a baby boy! I would have been happy either way, as long as our baby was healthy. I never realized how blessed I am to have such a wonderful husband, a great family, and a beautiful baby boy. Life has brought me so much to be thankful for. Lately, baby Logan has been kicking a lot! He kicks hard enough to wake me in the mornings. Rory can feel it now a lot too! He loves his daddy! Every time Rory is near, Logan kicks and kicks and kicks. He also loves going to the movies, or so I think, because every time we are in one, he is having his own party in there. Its rather cute. I also can feel where he is laying at now, and some times even see. I can feel a very hard spot, and when I place my hand on it, he moves a little, and my tummy is bigger where he lays. He is so precious and I love him so much! My sister Stephany is also having a boy. I wasn't supposed to find out til I was about 23 weeks, but Steph, who is two weeks behind me, find out on the 22, and I was so jealous, my mom offered to pay for a Fetal Fotos, which I appreciated so much! It was an awesome thing to see! As I sit here and type, Logan is kicking his life away. We can not wait to meet the little bug. Love you all!

17 weeks and baby movements.

I almost felt like it was to early to feel baby move when I felt him at 16 weeks, but sure enough, every day after that the movements continued. I usually will feel him kicking at night when I am crawling in and Rory is cuddling close to me, when I am most relaxed, but this week I felt him move a few more times during the day. Two nights ago though, the night I turned 17 weeks, I had my hand on my tummy, and felt three little "pops". It felt like something flicking me from the out side in. It had me laughing, because it was four in the morning and I was up with one of my horrible migraines, and just feeling that made my night better. I woke up Rory and had him feel, but bubs stopped moving after that. Tonight though, while we lay in bed, I had Rory put his hand on my tummy because I could feel bubs dancing around in there. Sure enough, Rory felt him kick a few times. He loved it just as much as I did! I guess I probably shouldn't be calling the little one a him yet ( that just comes natural), but I know it is a boy, and we will have it confirmed January 2, or some where close to that. I know I felt movement at 15 weeks, but just brushed it off as gas of some sort. Now though, I am positive about what I felt. Rory and I went and checked out some baby supplies. We went to Ikea first, and seriously I didn't think I could leave. Rory and I LOVED it there> our first time. Than Target. We couldn't find anything we liked so we decided to check out online. We found the perfect crib on Target's website. It has a changer attatched, and it also transforms into a day bed, and a full size bed. I loved that. It has drawers underneath which will definetly come in handy. The price was perfect, $299.00. Unbelievable right? Right. I checked out and shipping it self cost $145.00 bucks! Well I decided to look up that crib on google.com, and sure enough it pulled the same exact one on Walmart.com, for $20.00 cheaper, and it has site to store shipping for free. That was exciting. Now all thats left to buy is the million other things! This is so exciting. I had a GREAT birthday! Went to Chillis for dinner, and Rory took me to Tepenyakis the day after. My mom gave us some money, which is what I asked for for baby supplies, and Rory and his sisters pitched in and bought me this awesome foot/hand spa that I have been talking about for weeks! I was so surprised! His parents also gave us money for baby supplies. All and all, it was wonderful. I am so thankful! Well, better get some sleep, or try to. Love you all!

16 weeks and 4 days

Thats right. Crazy huh? The little one is now the size of an avocado. How cute. Anyways, I have been feeling the little bean moving a lot this week. First it just felt like bubbles, or if the baby was doing summer saults, but tonight, I felt little "pops", which I assume would be kicking. It had me laughing over and over again. Rory loved it! So my birthday is just a couple of days away, which seems so strange to me. I will be 18 which is cool, I guess. It seems so funny that Rory and I planned on marrying this coming Spring, and I am so happy my mom agreed to letting us marry this August. Not sure what I will be doing for my birthday, probably just a dinner of some sort. Also, Rory and I are so close to being done with Christmas shopping, just my dad and brother left. I finished wrapping all of the presents tonight and now I feel like a pro at it. School is almost over for me, I am gradated in four weeks, this is so exciting for me because I accomplished something that meant a lot ot me. I will be graduated two quarters early. I plan on going to SLCC for beautician in the fall. Life has been very good lately. Rory and I are so excited for our new life that is coming soon. He is such an amazing husband and I am so thankful to have him. I love him so much and I am so in love with him and I know he feels the same for me. I know we will always be completely happy with eachother forever and ever and after and always in love with eachother for ever and ever and after and always together forever and ever and after. Love you all bye!