Starting my career, and making the best choices.

So I finally realized what I am truly good at and what I love doing. Photography. I have improved so much in what I do, and I am now learning GIMP and photoshop. I decided to set forth and start advertising. In fact, I have a shoot booked for friday, and a few senior shots to do. I am way excited and very proud of my self for pushing and pushing and not giving up. I can take critism from people and turn it around into something good. Learning from it. I tend to only listen to the ones who matter most, or who really know what they are talking about.
This week has been a pretty good week. Although there are certain people really trying and going out of there way to put me down, I am finally seeing what I should have done years ago. I finally took out my trash. Now I can wipe my hands clean. I know there was times when I tried and failed at doing this in the past, but this time I have no need to dumpster dive. Yay for me! I can move on now. I have every one in my life that I need.
Logan is growing very fast and it is almost scary how close it is for him to be here with us. I am learning all about his personality and his sleeping patterns. It is amazing! I can sit and watch my belly move when he moves around. Being a mom is going to be an awesome experience, especially with my loving and supporting Husband by my side. I am so blessed to be where I am at today.

22 weeks pregnant

Here I am at 22 weeks pregnant! It has been an eventful day this week. While my pregnancy seems to be going by so fast, my tummy feels with more butterflies each day. These butterflies are representing Rory and I's excitement to meet Baby Logan, to be parents, to count on eachother through it all, Our love to keep growing and growing just like it has always, to share our love with Logan, and my nervousness about being a mom. Thats right, I am nervous. Rory is far to excited to be nervous, and he has no reason to be. I know he is going to make an incredible dad. He already is. He is a great husband. I love him so much! I am nervous because I feel like I don't know enough. I know I will do great with Rory's help, I just feel like it might not come as natural. Although I have helped with many of my siblings and nieces and nephews, and I am great with kids, I still get those jitters. I know though that we both will do great. Last night I ended up in Labor and Delivery for five hours after taking a hard fall down some slick stairs up at Sundance. It was a long drive to the hospital, and I was on the verge of breaking down because Logan had stopped kicking. He was so active all day until the fall, and I think it is cause it scared him. Although I got pretty beat and bruised up, my only thought was Logan. I got to the hospital and they put a monitor on my tummy to monitor his heart beat and movements to make sure he wasn't going into stress. At midnight, I arrived home, feeling so good to know my baby boy is doing great! I woke up this morning so sore from the fall, but I am fine as long as Rory and Logan are doing good. I have learned that some people I allowed into my life really have to spot to be there. I took a lot of crap and hurt from these people, and I let them control my emotions for a long time, but when they offended my husband, thats where my line was crossed. I just have realized what is important to me, and what I want in my life. That is happiness and positiveness, and with these people in it, its hard to have. It is time to start thinking about me and my family, and I know what is best now. I am so happy for the great people I have in my life. It is incredible how much they can do for me, even when it is such simple things. I have also learned about how easily death can hit upon. Rory and I knew a kid that recently decided he wanted to return to Heavenly Father, and although I myself really did not know him, I knew of him, I just realized how easily it hits, and how much we need to really devote our selfs to family. Life is such a precious gift and we have been given so much to live for, it is something we need to take day by day and learn and love and laugh. I am so blessed for Rory, Logan, my parents, and all of my family, and I am so grateful to spend my life with them in it. Well, I am off. We love you all!

21 weeks 4 days.

What a journey! Today, Rory and I went into my second ultrasound where they check on the baby and make sure everything looks good. He was moving so much! I guess that could be from the coffee I drank a few minutes before. In the first ultrasound, he was sleeping through most of it, so I was bummed. This time he really put on a show! Rory calls him our little porn star. He was NOT shy. Even at the first one he was opening wide for the world to see. Everything looked great. He was right on track. The only thing we could not make sure of was the cleft lip, because he was facing my spine so we could not see his little face, but the US tech said we shouldn't worry unless it runs in our family. Which it doesn't, that we know of. So I am half way through, and everything has gone great. My morning sickness has let up ALOT, and I am finally putting on a few pounds here and there. I have gained a total of five pounds, and lost a total of 15 pounds, I should have gained around ten, but as long as Logan is healthy and good, I am not complaining. Rory bought me my first pair of maternity jeans, I laugh as I write this because it seems so weird that I have to wear them. I guess it probably is not that okay to walk around with my pants unbuttoned. Rory has been so supportive of me and Logan, just as I had expected. He always buys me what I am craving, kisses my belly, falls asleep with his hand on my belly, Logan LOVES him! He kicks so much when Rory is around. It is so amazing. I am so excited, and can not believe a little less than twenty weeks and he will be here. Better get ready! I love my Rory so much! And my baby Logan. And Rory loves us so much too! We love you all!